Photography and I go way back, way way back to the early years of Bebo and social media profile photos where MySpace angles, black and white filters and a duck face were all you needed to look super cool (I’ve been reading Emma’s Ctrl Alt Dlt which got me reminiscing over this fact), and I’ve always been the one to snap pictures of picnics, parties, and pantheons wherever I may be.
It took a while for me to realise people and photography were my thing; trying to paint people was not my forte (something I didn’t grasp until A-Level Art) and I would spend hours upon hours editing photos of last night’s gathering for Facebook, planning photoshoots for DPs and taking selfies before selfies were selfies.
When you find a passion, it’s important to keep hold of it and run wild with it, but it’s also important to accept doubt and questioning you stumble upon along the way. I remember in my final year of 6th Form my teacher (who had given me an A* in Photography) said he thought I’d end up doing printing, and whilst I enjoyed that, I didn’t crave the process like I did snapping, editing and sharing imagery. There was also the decision of studying further to degree level which I went against because £9K a year seemed way to much when you can just go out there and learn.
I’ve had my frustrations: am I good enough? Do I have an eye? They don’t have an eye why do they get to do cool stuff? What am I doing?! But it has been recent times, pushing myself to make more of what I love that made me realise: damn, I love photography, and so many things have happened that have helped me reach this point.
From a teacher’s questioning, self-doubt and saying no to uni, to finally starting to offer services to friends, bloggers and clients (which after a lul in Spring made me think ‘why bother?’ and ho ho I’m so glad I kicked my butt in gear), working with people I admire and get to push both them and myself with imagery, it makes me so sure that photography is what I’m meant to do. I love writing words, and making videos, but I love photos more. I love creating beautiful imagery – soft, blurry and natural for blogs, and high contrast and dramatic for something more ‘wow’, even fine art that brings discussion, because there is so much you can say about yourself through imagery, and show much more of another through your perception.
Now I do this thing on the train, where I imagine what my life would be like if I were a big successful YouTuber or creator, at the point where I could create ‘merch’ let’s say; writing a book didn’t feel right, a beauty line would be cool but I’d want it so specific it may be too expensive for the target audience…and then I thought: well, I’d run photography courses and workshops, maybe even sell prints. It was so clear, that I would teach people how to use their cameras and take beautiful photographs, inspiring them to look at things differently and being able to share my knowledge too.
It’s really quite wonderful to get to a point where you know having your own business is the thing you are passionate about. I’ve started working with Anna on her photography and it’s so fun (and a breath of fresh air) to produce content for someone else; it opens your eyes and makes you think more when you consider the subject, what their style is and what they want, and so far it’s going fab. I’ve had the pleasure of photographing other bloggers and friends (like these beautiful images of Saida) and help them achieve their visual goals, and even thought you’re not the one in frame, you’re just as visible as the model or subject.
I love now that I can say my main job is photography, it’s amazing, and I love the process of planning right through to the final image being shared on platforms and seeing the response. It drives me to be better and to keep creating, and should you stumble across a similar feeling then make sure you listen to it, because that girl who was always shoving a digital camera in your face at house parties may be destined for something.
What is your passion? Has something you love and enjoy become a job or led to a career? And how beaut is Saida?!
Lots of Love,
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