It always feels really crap when your skin is starting to look good, and BAM you breakout (thanks life), but it’s even worse when you’re trying to battle acne. Now I still don’t know 100% what caused my acne but it’s definitely related to hormones and possibly even my liver not being able to detox them properly, but I will admit the closest I’ve got to diagnosis is a doctor telling me I possibly I had PCOS back in 2011 because I wasn’t having a cycle and coincidently that day I started my period and all hardcore spots vanished. The things your body will do NOT to do on medication.

I’ve said it here and on my channel many times before, my acne has been low-level running along since May last year and at times it’s gotten better and others just freaked the f out. Medication for me was out of the question, and I’ve been covering all areas to get my body functioning normally and my skin calmed the heck down and stop it from following usual acne symptoms. From ditching dairy and going fully plant-based/vegan, to exercise and supplements, heck even having no-makeup weeks to let my skin breathe, I’ve tried a lot.

You’ll know I’m a huge fan of Tria, a blue light device that kills acne-loving bacteria deep in the epidermis, drying out the skin and reducing oil production whilst helping clear up old marks and blemishes, however I ran out of cartridges and thought ‘hey I’ll just stop using this for two months and see what happens!’. No. Cue my face beginning to get all textured and clogged, new and almost healed spots resurfacing and a face-palming Lauren who regrets everything. Luckily I’ve got my hands on some more cartridges and use it 3 minutes morning and night to get my skin back in shape and now I’m on the other side of the ‘freakout’, I’m hoping it’s only upwards we go.

In the meantime, I had another little helped on hand from Dermalex, and whilst this is neither a medicated antibiotic solution or completely natural, it is a little miracle; whilst Tria works deep in the skin up, Dermalex controls what’s on top – minimising spots, helping to clear up pigmentation, softening skin and basically speeding up the healing process. Using this alone with my other skincare, I saw a big difference in the bumps, but combined with Tria and other acne busting products (including Mario Badescu’s Anti-Acne Serum, a little extra summin’summin for hydration and spot soothing) my skin is starting to get back somewhat on track – coupled with a few more clarifying face masks and exfoliation, those pores will be cleaner than Monica’s personal cleaning solution.

Enough of the treatments and creams though, because underneath all the products is still the matter of how your skin affects you, and I have to admit that 70% of the time it makes me feel crap. Sure there are days it’s okay enough to put on less concealer and feel ‘fine’ with how my coverage is, but there’s always a bit of flake, a bump which hasn’t gone down or a blemish mark still poking through no matter what you apply, and on the days or weeks even when it’s really breaking out, all I can see is clogged, oily, gross pores filled with a substance I swear to god has been trying to stress me out since puberty and painful bumps that gleefully sit hiding, knowing you cannot get them out.

I’ve researched enough now to know that acne causes hormones and chemicals in the body to thicken the skin quicker hence the patch on my chin being a nightmare area where spots like to hide, and that areas of the face reflect your inner bodily functions (constant hormones, much anger) but it’s getting to a point and age where I don’t want to wreck my skin anymore trying to extract pimples and cysts and actually not have to worry about my complexion – does it look good enough today to wear less makeup? Or shall I stay inside? As much as it is about the physical, it’s also mentally challenging, as if my brain can’t register the fact my skin can be clear and that even if it looks clear, there just has to be a spot or blackhead of 20 that need to come our right? *face palm*

I’m bored and tired of seeing red lumps, oily pores, under-skin yellow bumps, and I’m bored and tired of constantly saying ‘I have the cure!’ because truth be told, I just want to have clearer, more manageable and cared for skin; I would take one big hormonal spot on my chin for a week running up to my period over constant ‘yuck my face’ every day, and I think until I can get the balance of that both mentally and physically ingrained, acne will still be hanging around. Here’s to hopefully and finally drawing out every impurity, sorting out my hormones and getting my skin to chill out, because lord knows I’ve waited long enough.

Do you suffer with acne or easily blemished skin? How do you care for spots? Do you have any tips for me?!

Lots of Love,
Lauren x

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